Chapter 4

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Something Unexpected!

It was the next morning after junior became a witness to bey and jays sex escapade..bey had woken up early around 9 o'clock to call solange and get her help...she didn't know what she'd tell junior feeling so ashamed..so she looked to solange to hopefully give her some good advice on how to handle this ..luckily solo was up when bey called...and when she spilled the tea on what had happened..solo told her to wait to tell her the rest when she got there..this story was gonna be good and solange wanted the full effect..15 minutes after solo hung up with bey....she found herself sitting at bey and jays dining room table hardly being able to control herself she was laughing so hard...


Solo: Well did he actually see y'all doing anything thu?!
Bey: He saw us doing EVERYTHING solo! I feel so embarrassed!! I don't know what im gonna tell him...that's why i asked you to come over early so i could get some advice before he wakes up!
Solo: *chuckles*...i remember when julez walked in on me and his daddy one night!
Bey: oh my god solo you never told me about that!..How come?!
Solo: because..it was the most embarrassing moment of my life and i didn't want ANYONE to know about it! Its enough mama already know!
Bey: oh so you can tell ma but you can't tell your big sis?!
Solo: i didn't tell her bey! Julez big mouthed ass told her what happened! I was so mad at him that day, but i couldn't blame him for telling her!
Bey: *laughing*..you know he's just like you right?!
Solo: Yeah i do! *jokingly*..and i don't know if that's a good thing *giggles*
Bey: *sits up*..so tell me what happened when julez walked in on you?!

Solo got up from the table and walked over to the couch where bey was sitting....she sat down, took another sip of her orange juice and then looked at bey..

Solo: i was giving Daniel head and..*turns red*..oh my god this is embarrassing!......he was cumming in my mouth when i turned to the side and saw julez just standing by the door staring at us!!
Bey: O.O oh my god Solllaannngggee!!!!
Solo: It was so horrible bey..and then to top it all off..i couldn't swallow it fast enough to tell julez to close the door and choked on it!!
Bey: oh shit solo!! My poor nephew!!
Solo: *shaking her head*..im still ashamed of it till this day! I know i scarred my son..this is something that will forever be in his mind!
Bey: Well i think your story may be a little bit more crazier than mine! What'd he say to you afterwards?
Solo: well i was completely naked and made my way around the bed to hide..after Daniel tucked his dick back in his boxers he brought julez back to his room! He said he didn't say anything at all just laid back down sort of in shock! I asked mama what he told her but you know how she is..she was all like.."that's between her and julez"..ch!
Bey: *laughs*..my poor poor nephew..no wonder he's always asking questions about body parts! *side eyes solo*
Solo: look its not my fault..i told Daniels dumb ass to make sure the door was locked! None of that would of happened if it had been! But enough about me! tell me what happened with y'all and my nephew?!

Bey took a deep breathe and sat back on the couch...solo could already see the embarrassment on her face as she was about to speak..

Bey: Well me and jay were having sex last night and we were going at it! All of a sudden i felt something hitting my leg and it scared me so i jumped..when me and jay looked back, there junior was just staring at us with the same look im pretty sure julez had!
Solo: were you guys covered up?
Bey: some of us but we were all over the place so i know jays ass had to have been out for him to see!
Solo: Well..that's not really that bad thu! I mean when you think about it he could've walked in on y'all doing what me and Daniel were doing! *sips orange juice*
Bey: you're right, but at the same time solo i know junior is gonna wake up wanting to know about what he saw..so what do i tell him?

just when solo was about to give her advice jay came walking down the stairs holding junior...they had both just woken up and were looking for bey..

Jay: there you are..*walking down the stairs*..me and lil man were looking for our favorite woman!
Bey: *smiles and meets them*..heeyy baby! *kisses junior*
Junior: hey mommy!..*sees solo*..heeeyy aunty!!
Solo: *smiles and takes julez*..hey baby..how's nanny's favorite nephew?!
Junior: i mished you aunty!
Solo: i missed you too!
Bey: *kisses jay and smiles at him seductively*..did you sleep well?
Jay: *blushing*..oh i slept a lil too well..*chuckles*..you hungry?
Junior: I am daddy!
Jay: aight well why don't we go and hook up some breakfast for mommy and aunty solo!
junior: okay..

so junior and jay left the ladies and went into the kitchen..jay started getting real into making sure breakfast was perfect for bey and sort of forgot about junior standing there in the kitchen with him and so junior ran back into the living room with bey and solo...

Jay: *yelling from the kitchen*..Bey babe could you come here real quick?!
Bey: comin bae!

bey got up and met jay..leaving solo and junior by themselves..junior walked up to solo unexpectedly and looked right in her face..

Solo: whats up lil man..you okay?
Junior: aunty i have a question?

(Solo)
when junior said that i just knew he was about to ask me about seeing bey and jay last night! Julez did the same thing when he told mama about me and dan!

Solo: what is it baby?
Junior: why daddy get on top of mommy at night?
Solo: *nearly choking on her orange juice*..um well junior...you see..*thinks of something*..they were just hugging!
Junior: but aunty daddy was moving and mommy was screaming!

solo had no clue of what to say to junior..you would think she did but he caught her off guard and she had no time to think about anything..

Solo: *yelling from the living room*..Thu get in here please and now!!
Bey: *walking into the living room with a quickness*..what is it solo..everything okay?!
Solo: junior go and meet your dad while i talk to mommy for a second okay!
Junior: okay aunty! *runs off*

junior went into the kitchen and solo watched as he disappeared..as soon as she didn't see him anymore she looked back at bey...

Solo: thu guess what i just got asked by my nephew...your son?!
Bey: oh my god what solo?
Solo: he came up to me catching me way off guard and asked.."why jay be on top of you at night"
Bey: *turns red*..solo he didn't! i thought he forgot about it since he wasn't saying anything!
Solo: chile kids never forget! he was just waiting for the right time to ask somebody!
Bey: what's you tell him when he asked?
Solo: well i just told him that jay was hugging you!
Bey: that's the same exact thing jay told him solo really?!..You could've came up with something better!
Solo: look bey..he caught me off guard i wasn't expecting his question! I told him the first thing that came to mind!
Bey: well..what'd he say after that?
Solo: *chuckles*..he asked.."why was jay moving and you screaming"
Bey: :-O
Solo: *laughs*..that boy aint no fool! he knows that y'all weren't just hugging bey!
Bey: oh my god solo this is bad! i need to find a way to explain this to him!
Solo: well i hope you do soon because he's just gonna keep asking everybody those questions until he hears the truth!

jay came out into the living room and told everyone breakfast was ready...bey told solo to go ahead with junior so that she could tell jay about what had just happened! He was just as shocked as bey was hearing that junior had asked solo about them having sex....breakfast was sort of awkward for bey..junior kept staring and her and jay the whole time..it was like he was trying to figure something out in his little child mind..

Solo: well y'all..thanks so much for breakfast but i have to leave now!..i have an appointment in 2hours and then i have a meeting with julez teacher!
Bey: whats going on with him?
Solo: girl something about they caught him and another little girl kissing behind a bush at recess..so now i have to have a meeting with them to decide on the punishment!
Jay: *chuckling*..lil man macking already huh!
Bey: *hits jay*..that's not funny babe..he doesn't need to be going around kissing on girls at his age!
Solo: well personally i think that lil fast ass girl kissed him! but i'll let you know how everything goes when i get there..ill see y'all later..*kisses junior*..bye lil man..*hugs jay*..bye bro! *kisses bey*..love you sis!
Bey: okay solo..be careful and call me later!
Solo: Okay! *walking out the door*

(3 hours later)
jay had stepped out to take care of some business in the studio...Kelly came over to get junior for the day since she was finally free and could spend time with her nephew! Bey was sitting home alone and bored to death...she had nothing to do and wanted to get out of the house and so she got dressed..and called her best friend Gwen after she was done..

Gwen: hey bey whats going on?
Bey: gwen save me please! im so bored! *laughs*
Gwen: well you're just in luck sister...moms got apple for the next 3 days so im free! Actually im glad you called me!
Bey: Really?! well this is perfect! give me 20 ill be there!
Gwen: okay bye girl!

Bey sprung up from the couch in excitement finally having a reason to leave the house...she grabbed her phone, purse, and headed over to Gwens house...

Gwen: *sits down*..so what do you have in mind to do?
Bey: i don't know! Its been a minute since i just let loose and had a really good time! I wanna do that!
Gwen: Oh my god you are gonna love me for this bey!
Bey: what? what is it?!
Gwen: well..i have some friends and they're like all into throwing raves and what not!
Bey: raves huh...*getting interested*...go on!
Gwen: well..they just so happen to be having one tonight at Club Electric in Jersey...he invited me to go and i wasn't but since i have you..you down?!

(Bey)
i really didn't know what to think when Gwen mentioned a rave...i mean I've heard of them before but to be in the middle of one would be crazy..especially for us!

Bey: have you ever gone to one before?
Gwen: yeah girl..i used to hit raves all the time in college and still do now!
Bey: Chris doesn't have a problem with you going to these things?
Gwen: actually he goes with me! Its something we like to do! We disguise ourselves so we don't get noticed by anyone and just go and have a great time!
Bey: wow..me and jay should do something like that!
Gwen: Oh my god..why don't we all go? Me and Chris and you and jay!
Bey: *cheeses*..we are gonna have a good time tonight my friend..*chuckles while high fiving gwen*..
Gwen: you just wait and see how much fun you'll have this will be crazy! I'm telling you!!

so bey and Gwen talked a little more about their plans and taking jay and Chris with them..bey called Kelly and asked her to keep junior until the morning and then later called jay to tell him about the plans..he was kind of hesitant but agreed to hit the rave with Gwen and Chris..

(11pm that Night)

Bey: you ready babe?
Jay: *walking out of the bathroom*...how do i look?

bey looked jay up and down giggling at the sight of him..

Jay: what?! whats wrong with my outfit?!
Bey: Nothing babe you look sexy! But i thought we were supposed to wear a disguise?!
Jay: what im not disguised enough in this?
Bey: baby..a black t-shirt with black pants and shoes isn't exactly a disguise for you! You were that on a daily basis almost!
Jay: well look..im comfortable in this..besides its a rave..it'll be dark and i don't think anyone will recognize me! What about what you have on?

Bey had on some hipster jeans with the tears going down the legs..she wore a black shirt that fell off to her left side exposing her left shoulder..her favorite black fedora rested on her curly hair as she slid on her black raybanes to hide her eyes!

Bey: whats wrong with what i have on?
Jay: nothing! its perfect babe! You just make sure you don't lose me in this big ass crowd of people we about to hit!
Bey: ill be behind you every step babe..*kisses jay and smiles*

Gwen and Chris finally pulled up to the carters residence and bey and jay walked out..they were excited and ready to explore the rave world and have a great time dancing and listening to music...as they pulled up bey noticed Chris hand Gwen a very small and round item that looked like some sort of pill..

Gwen: okay you guys ready?
Bey: yes! *gets out*..this is so live omg!
Chris: wait until we hit the inside..*chuckles*
Bey: *pulls Gwen closer to her*..hey what was that Chris handed you in the car?
Gwen: oh he gave me an ex pill..we both take one when we go to these things...it makes the experience way better! you wanna take one?!

bey was sort of hesitant on taking the ex pill....she had never done such a thing before and didn't know if jay would've been down for it...the next thing you know jay was walking up to her with one in his hand..

Bey: oh my god jay you take those?
Jay: i used to when i would perform and stuff..but i haven't taken one in a while! Are you okay with this? I won't take it if you're not bey!
Bey: No its okay...go ahead..we're supposed to be having fun tonight right?
Jay: yeah..but i can have fun without it..if it bothers you in any way!

bey walked over to gwen and asked her for one of the pills...she took it as soon as gwen dropped it in her hand and walked back over to jay..

Bey: *holds out hand*..you ready?!
Jay: lets go!

TBC......

Flashbacks!

Bey walked over and flopped down onto the couch right next to jay who was eating a sandwich and watching the movie The Wood.. 

Bey: your mothers bringing junior back today right babe?
Jay: *takes a bite of his sandwich*..na we going pick him up!
Bey: oh okay..*looks at the tv*..babe whats this you're watching?
Jay: oh my god bey you never saw "the Wood" before?
Bey: *thinks*..oh yeah i have seen this!

Bey started getting into the movie with jay and the scene came on when slim was practicing his sexy dance moves with a stuffed animal and his mother and younger brother walked in...anyways this scene made jay laugh extra hard but more than he should've been..

Bey: *laughing*..babe is it really that funny?! you're about to choke on your sandwich!
Jay: *catching his breathe*..na i was done laughing at the movie..something else funny popped in my head!
Bey: well i wanna know!
Jay: *looks at bey*..you remember the time when i first asked you to come over to my house to meet my family?
Bey: Oh my god jay really?!..that's what you were thinking about? *laughing*..i still can't believe that happened till this day!!

(Flashback)

(Bey)

when i pulled up to jays house..i was a bit nervous..i had only been here a couple times before to get jay but i never went in..i sat in the car for an extra minute making sure i looked alright...i always had to look good if jay was gonna be in my presence!...anyways...i was hoping that we would be alone..i didn't hear any sounds coming from anywhere so i figured we were..i didn't know why jay wanted to meet at his moms house instead of his place, but i didn't look into it either.

Jay: *opening the door*..hey love..*smiles*..i been waiting for you!
Bey: *smiles*..hey baby..i got here as fast as i could! 

(Bey)

as i walked closer to jay he was looking soo damn good to me...he invited me in and as i walked past him he gave me a kiss and a very sexy look which turned me all the way on..i automatically assumed that he wanted to have sex and i was so ready for it!!

Jay: *looking at bey*..you okay love?
Bey: *blushes*..yeah im good! *looks jay up and down*
Jay: baby are you blushing? *smiles*
Bey: *turns her head*
Jay: *chuckles*..you know you're sexy right? *shakes his head*..come on..

jay took beys hand and brought her upstairs to his room...

Jay:I have a surprise for you!..why don't you make yourself comfortable..
Bey: *getting excited*..really?! what is it jay tell me!
Jay: just wait baby!

(Bey)

as soon as jay left out of the room i had a feeling he was wanting me to get ready for him and undress myself...he said to give him 5 minutes! while he was gone i started taking all of my clothes off...i just knew we were about to get it in when he got back..

(5 minutes later)

Jay: *yelling from downstairs*..hey bey come down here in the living room babe!
Bey: *yelling back*..okay!

bey figured jay had something special planned for just them two and finished getting undressed...she took everything off leaving only her panties and heels on and began to walk down the stairs sexily as she approached the living room...

(Bey)

I was coming down the stairs all seductively thinking jay was waiting for me when all of a sudden i saw his mother and his sister Annie staring at me with wide eyes shocked to see my naked exposed body standing in their living room!

(Back to reality)

Jay: *laughing his ass off*...bey you can't tell me that wasn't funny as hell! I literally had to move your body back upstairs...you froze up right in front my mom..*laughs harder*
Bey: *giving jay the death stare*..Shawn that was so not funny! I was completely embarrassed! That was my first time seeing your mom and sister and they had to see me like that!
Jay: I understand how you felt..but babe..you have to admit it WAS funny!
Bey: *starts laughing*..yeah it was actually..it took me like 2 months to meet them again and you had to beg me to then!
Jay: i know..*laughs*..but you know my mama never confronted me about it since that day?!
Bey: really?! maybe she just didn't want to..she probably thought we had sex or were about to!
Jay: im pretty sure she thought we did already!..*smirks*

so bey and jay chilled a little while longer and laughed at old memories..they pigged out and acted like teenagers until it was time to get junior...

Jay: *in the car*..so lets do something today!
Bey: like what?
Jay: i don't know...we gone finally be spending time together as a family..lets do something we haven't done in a while!
Bey: *thinks about it*..i know!..we can buy all kinds of junk and rent movies and pig out..lets just be kids with junior today!
Jay: *thinks about it*...aight..im down!..sounds like we have an interesting night ahead of us!
Bey: *chuckles*..why you say that babe?
Jay: because..whenever we do stuff like that..something crazy always happens!

(Flashback 4 months ago)

(Bey)

everybody was over to our house for a get together me and solange planned..we were all sitting around in the living room chatting and clowning around....i looked at junior to check on him when he started walking over..


Junior: mommy?!
Bey: *smiles*..what is it baby?! *pulls junior close to her*

(Bey)

we all got quiet to see what junior was gonna say...he was hesitant when he realized all the attention was on him..

Jay: whats on your mind son?
Junior: *looks at bey*.............when i get bigger..im gonna have a big pee pee like daddy! *smiles*

when junior said this solange laughed so hard..everybody was trying to hold in their laughs including jay..except for bey..she was so red from being embarrassed...she couldn't help but to laugh at what he said though..she just hugged him and said..

Bey: "okay baby.."

(Reality)

Bey: *laughing*..that was so crazy i was NOT expecting that!...i didn't even know what to say and everyone heard him!
Jay: *laughing*...yeah that shit was funny as hell too!...i don't know where he learns things like that..the boy is smart though!
Bey: yeah i think he's too smart..*chuckles*..

Bey and jay had finally made it to mama Glorias house to pick up junior...they said their hellos...and got juniors things..he was beyond excited to see bey..he ran into her arms and latched onto her like his life depended on it...they said their goodbyes and then left..

(Car Ride Home)

Junior: i mish you mommy!
Bey: I missed you too baby..*kisses him*..so me and daddy decided to have movie night tonight!
Junior: *eyes lights up*..yaayyy!! can we get finding nemo mommy?!
Bey: of course sweetheart you can get whatever movie you want!!

jay stopped to the store and they all went in and bought nothing but junk food..they made it home and jay put in finding nemo for the first movie..after they pigged out and watched the movie..jay put in another movie for him and bey that junior ended up falling asleep on..they took him upstairs and continued on with the movie..things got a little heated and bey and jay ended up in their bed..

Bey: *moans*..mmhh..right there jaayyy!!
Jay: *thrusting in and out*..shhh..juniors asleep baby..*thrusts a little faster*
Bey: *bites her lip*..mmmmhhh..

jay was getting it IN with bey...about 15 minutes had passed...bey felt something hitting her foot which made her jump..her and jay quickly looked back and saw their son junior standing at the foot of the bed watching them..jay hopped off bey quickly..and his dick stood at attention exposed for junior to see..he hurried to cover himself with the blanket..

Junior: daddy..what are you doing to mommy?!
Jay: O_O..hey son..i was um..hugging mommy!
Bey: O_O
Junior: *looks at bey and then back at jay*...why were you on mommy daddy?
Jay: *nervous chuckle*..i told you i was giving her a hug son! 
Junior: daddy why your pee pee like that? 

after that question jay didn't have anything to say...all he could do was get out of bed throw his boxers on and put junior back to sleep...him and bey were both stunned and felt ashamed...

Jay: *walking back into the room*..babe would you be mad if i said i was finished?
Bey: *chuckles*..no because i was gonna tell you the same thing!...I can't believe he saw us getting that busy!
Jay: i know right...and he was looking at me like he knew i was lying..*sits on the edge of the bed*
Bey: you think he'll remember this when he wakes back up?
Jay: oh yeah..this is junior we're talking about..he remembers everything!
Bey: *sighs*...i have no idea what to say to him about this! I should call solo in the morning and ask her..you think?
Jay: we gotta do something bey you know he's coming with more questions when he gets up!..
Bey: Okay ill call her first thing..im sure she's had this happen with julez before!
Jay: however we decide to handle this...i think you should talk to him because im not sure I'd explain it the right way! 
Bey: okay!

after bey and jay talked about what had just happened...they cuddled up next to each other....after junior startled their poor nerves and shot their mood..they decided to not finish having sex to avoid future unexpected distractions...

TBC....

Nothing Sex Can't Solve!

Hey readers...i think its time for bey and jay to finally have some time away from the drama..they are just always into too much shit..anyways I've mellowed it down a little...i think I'll stay on this path for just a short while and then bring back the craziness..I'm picking up right where i left off in the last post.. Workaholic...Enjoy!!

 the time is 3am and bey was just getting back home...she was still a little tipsy but sobered up a bit during the ride..bey unlocked the front door and when she walked in...jay was there sitting on the the couch..he still had his slacks and shirt on from his suit just sitting there with his hands together and head down...when he heard bey come in..he looked up at her...she looked back at him and leaned up against the door..jay stood up and started walking over to bey..she watched him as he moved in closer...jay got right up to beys face and stopped for a second..he looked into her eyes and then caressed beys lips with his..

Jay: *kissing beys neck*...i love you..
Bey: *softly moans*..i love you too.

bey dropped her clutch to the floor and took off her heels...the kissing between her and jay got really intense..bey unbuttoned jays shirt and he picked her up..wrapping beys legs around his waist...jay walked over to the stairs and took bey upstairs to their room..

Jay: *takes beys dress off*..you're beautiful..*looks her up & down*
Bey: *smiles & blushes*

bey looked off to the side because she was so flattered and blushing so hard...jay found it cute and turned her head back towards him...he smiled and once again started kissing her passionately....jay finished undressing bey and she undressed him..

Bey: *moans*..i missed you so much jay..*kisses his lips*

Jay didn't say anything...he responded with putting his warm and wet tongue on beys box..beys back came to a complete arch as she let out a deep moan...jay feasted on bey like life depended on it..

Bey: *gasps*...jaayyyy...i can feel it...*moans*...mmh im cumming baby!

Jay slides two fingers inside beys kitty slowly moaning with every stroke he gives her...

Jay: *whispering*..cum for me beyonce...
Bey: ye..ye..yessss aaaahhh...hooo my god jaayyyyy....*moans and whimpers in complete bliss*

Jay stopped and watched beys body tremble as it was coming down from an overpowering orgasm..when she finally opened her eyes back up..jay had moved to the side of her sitting up against the head board..bey got up and kissed jay..

Bey: i love you so much..*kiss*

Jay grabbed beys waist and situated her body on top of his...he placed his lips right in the middle of beys chest kissing and sucking on it..he unsnapped her bra and began teasing bey with his tongue...her nipples protruded outwards as jay circled around them slowly and softly...bey rubbed his head and moaned as her body caught chills with every circle..jay finally pulled out his penis...bey lifted herself with her knees so that jay could situate himself inside her...he had to do some pushing but he finally made it through...bey let out a loud moan as she slid up and down opening herself up to fit jays size once again...it had been one month too long since they made love and bey needed every second of it...

Jay: *wrapping his arms around bey*...mmmmh shit bey...*moans*...just like that!
Bey: *riding jay*...mmh..jay you're so perfect...uuuhhhh...

Jay slapped beys ass and watched her as she put in work...they made love for hours lost in their own world ..at the end of the day jay wasn't worried about what was going on around them as long as he was able to spend time with bey...he loved her so much and would do anything for her...

Bey: *falls off jay onto the bed*..mmh jay! *catching her breathe*..you're so amazing!
Jay: *smiles and kisses her*...you're even more amazing bey!

jay and bey finally came down off their sexual high and took a shower together..they got dressed and went downstairs to chill and watch tv...beys phone started ringing and she got up from the couch and walked into the kitchen to answer it...jay found it odd considering she answers her phone in front of him any other time he didn't get upset or anything...but he felt some kind of way about that and wanted to ask bey about it..after about 10 minutes she came back into the living room and sat back down...

Jay: *looking at bey*..who was that?!
Bey: *side eyes jay*..it was no one!
Jay: i don't believe you were talking to no one for 10 minutes bey..come on who was it?
Bey: it doesn't really matter babe..

jay saw how bey was trying to avoid answering the question..so he just came out and asked beyonce about Lyndell...

Jay: *sitting up*..bey i need to talk to you about something! *turns the tv down*
Bey: *looking at jay* what is it?
Jay: the other day when i went to turn you phone on silent a text came through...i know it was none of my business and i shouldn't have looked through your phone, but i saw ol dudes name and had to check it out!
Bey: okay..*stands up and crosses her arms*..what are you getting at?
Jay: i think you know what im talking about beyonce! I saw Lyndells name and the text message said you transferred $5k to the nigga!! In jail!

(Bey)

I got so nervous...i had no idea what to say...if i told him the truth he'd be mad and if i lied he'd still be mad because he would know im lying...ugh im just gonna be completely honest with him..after this morning i don't wanna ruin the mood between us right now!

Bey: *sits back down*..jay...Lyndell got in touch with me through some officers he became cool with in prison!
Jay: o_O seriously?
Bey: yes..he's a trustee inmate now which means they allow  him to do more things around the prison!
Jay: bey i know what a trustee inmate is...can't you get to the point love!
Bey: okay..anyways..he was able to call me and we talked for a minute..i was gonna hang up on him but he begged me to just listen for a second...after we caught up, he asked me to send him some money...
Jay: and so you felt like you had to send him some?
Bey: No jay! he said that he's sorry how things ended up and I'm the only person he has to depend on right now! He said if i sent him something that it would be the last call i ever get from him and so i agreed!
Jay: oh..well that explains it!..but 5g's though bey?! what could a guy possibly need with all that in jail?
Bey: well he actually only asked for $500 but, i figured since he's gonna be in there a long time why not give him a little extra!
Jay: *shaking his head*..you're too nice sometimes bey..you can't be like that with everybody!
Bey: well that's something i can't help..its just in me to be kind and generous!

jay took beys hand and placed a kiss on it..he then kissed her on her cheek softly and said..

Jay: thank you for being honest with me baby!
Bey: so you're not mad that i sent him money?
Jay: well i was to tell you the truth..but since you let me know how it came about im not tripping! But there's still one thing i wanna know?
Bey: *smiling*..whats that?
Jay: who were you just on the phone with a few minutes ago?
Bey: it was Lyndell...he called to tell me thank you and that he wouldn't' be bothering me again!
Jay: oh okay..one more thing bey?!
Bey: what now?
Jay: work?!...i need you to slow down and come back to your family for a while beyonce! your son needs you...I need you!

bey looked down and looked back up at jay..she smiled as juniors face popped into her head..

Bey: okay baby...im really gonna cut back and spend more time with y'all! I don't know why i became such a workaholic but, that's not gonna be me anymore..I promise!
Jay: you sure about that promise? ima hold you to it and I'm really gonna be upset if you break it this time bey!
Bey: I promise jay..*looking in his eyes*...thanks to you...i realized how bad i was neglecting my own child and husband...you put me in check and that's what i needed because i was becoming something else!
Jay: well im glad you realized that babe..and im here for you all the way okay..i just want you to be here with me too!
Bey: *kisses jay*..i am baby trust me!
Jay: *kisses bey*..I do..*smiles*

TBC....

Workaholic!

New Month...New Direction...New Post...Enjoy!!

Jay sat down and grabbed the blunt from solo...it had been a long day and a couple blows is exactly what he needed...its Friday evening and jay had come home from working with his new artist Rita Ora...he found solange messing around and rolling a blunt in him and beys home studio and joined her...the kids were with mama Tina and mama Gloria..and bey was in the city busy with work....jay and beyonce had sort of been on bad terms the past day because she had been working extra hours and spending less time with him and junior...jay wasn't feeling it and him and bey had an argument about it....since then they've been kind of silent with each other...

Solo: so you and bey still mad at each other? *passes blunt to jay*
Jay: well..she really has no reason to be mad at me! I on the other hand have every reason to be upset with her!
Solo: why you just don't talk to her jay? I hate when y'all act this way with each other! It affects all of us believe it or not!
Jay: *passes blunt back to solo*..I have talked with her solo...on different occasions and its like she's not hearing me! she's seen her son twice this week solo....twice!!
Solo: damn are you serious jay?
Jay: yea! *puffs blunt*..junior asks where she is all the time...its hurtful to see the look in his eyes when i tell him!..*passes blunt*
Solo: *shaking her head* this is getting too out of hand!..I wonder whats going on with bey..this really isn't like her!
Jay: I don't know..but I'm supposed to go to this event with her tonight..I'm not really down for it because we haven't really been on speaking terms since yesterday, but its important to her so ima be there!
Solo: well its not my business but, if you want me to talk to her about it or anything just let me know!
Jay: thanks solo..i will!

Jay and solo finished the blunt and continued talking for a little while longer..they both got hungry and decided to go out and grab a bite to eat...about 30 minutes after they left the house...bey had came back home..she'd just got done with a photo shoot and was still in full make-up....bey noticed it was a little more quiet than usual so she walked around and called jays name..when he didn't answer..she flopped down on the couch and let out a deep sigh..while pulling her phone out..

(Text Convo - Bey & Jay)

Bey: Hey where you at?

Jay: I'm out eating with solo. you home?

Bey: yeah im here..what y'all eating?

Jay: popeyes! you want something?

Bey: yes please and thank you.

Jay: aight..we gone be there in about 20 minutes.

Bey: okay

20 minutes had come and gone and bey finally heard solo and jay pull up outside..she walked over to the door and opened it..she watched jay as he got her food out of the back seat and thought about how much she missed him since she had been working so much....jay sounded okay in the text messages so bey figured that he had forgiven her until, everyone went into the house and sat down to eat except  jay!....he walked over to the table and ate his food sitting by himself..

Solo: why you all the way over there jay?!
Jay: No reason..i just wanted to eat at the table!
Bey: are you over there because you don't wanna sit by me?

Jay looked at bey and then continued eating his food...he was still upset with her about working all the time and he clearly wasn't gonna let her forget that until she did something about it! Bey got a little upset and suddenly lost her appetite..she pushed her plate away and ran upstairs..

Solo: come on jay..stop acting so childish!
Jay: how am i acting childish solo?
Solo: you not even talking to her about it...I know you said you have before but some things you have to keep working at! When bey is upset about something working is her way of getting over it or getting her mind off of it for the moment..you need to see whats bothering her jay! Don't just shut her out because the problem could be deeper than you think!

Jay soaked in all of solos words and thought long and hard about what she'd said...he realized that he WAS acting very childish and that he should be more of a husband and work things out with bey..jay wiped his hands and sat back in his chair...

(Jay)
I had to think for a minute about what i was gonna tell bey when i went up there...solo was right but at the same time bey needs to realize her mistakes...if there IS a problem..then she should talk to me about it..not go off and work all kind of hours staying away from her family! *sighs*..I hope this gets better and not worse! *gets up*

Solo: you going talk to her?
Jay: yeah i guess ill go and get to the bottom of this!
Solo: Good! don't let me hold you back go on..

Jay pulled his phone out, turned it on silent and then proceeded upstairs...bey was in the bathroom when he entered their room and so he waited...while jay waited he closed beys laptop and turned off the tv..he didn't' want anything distracting them from the conversation they were about to have....jay found beys phone and went to turn it on silent when she received a text message...it was a computerized text message from her bank letting her know that $5000 that had been taken from her account a week ago was finally processed and transferred to the Houston Correctional facility for Lyndell Locke! Jay was quite confused by the text and wondered immediately what bey had been up to! He decided to not confront her about this just yet though considering they had bigger problems to worry about....jay continued with turning her phone on silent when bey finally came out of the bathroom...

Bey: what are you doing with my phone? *takes it from jay*
Jay: I was only trying to turn it on silent so we could talk and not be interrupted! *looks at bey in frustration*..Whats with you beyonce? You really haven't been yourself at all these past weeks!
Bey: *sighs*..Nothing Shawn! You're always making things more than they really are! *sits on the bed*
Jay: So I'm Shawn now!..*shakes his head*..
Bey: *rolls her eyes*..look..all I've been doing is working! How have i not been myself just because I've been working? explain that to me!
Jay: Bey i feel like im losing you...its almost like I'm starting to not recognize you or something! The beyonce i know used to make time for her family!...the beyonce i know never used to neglect her son only seeing him twice a week! you know he asks about you all the time?
Bey: *puts her head down*
Jay: yeah you should feel bad...you know he waited up for you Thursday when you promised to bring him to the park, but then you decided to stay a few extra hours in the studio instead!
Bey: i called him that day and checked on him jay! I let him know I'd make it up to him!
Jay: bey we called you! remember you told him you'd call him back...you were in the middle of work?!!....you left junior hanging!! he literally cried himself to sleep that afternoon!

(Bey)
i felt my heart become heavy and my eyes filled with tears while jay was telling me about junior...i didn't even realize how badly i was neglecting my own child! I felt so bad and honestly i didn't know at all what to think of any of this! What is wrong with me?

Bey: *trying to hold back tears*..jay im so sorry!
Jay: don't tell me tell it to your son! I think i can deal with this a little better than he can right now!
Bey: *starts crying*..i don't know whats wrong with me jay!
Jay: ch..tell me about it! I saw you 4 times last week beyonce.......4! I was lucky to get one more than that this week and that was only because i came to see you at work! Can you imagine how junior feels hardly seeing his mother?!

by this time jay had bey in tears...he wasn't purposely trying to make her feel bad..jay just wanted bey to realize her actions and to see how they were tearing her family apart...as bey rested her elbows on her legs..she placed her head inside her hands...she began balling in tears when jay walked over to her and kneeled..

Jay: baby..*moving beys hands*..baby tell me whats wrong?..why do you feel the need to work so much again? Is something bothering you? Is it me?
Bey: *sniff*..no jay..i just.....i just..
Jay: you just what bey?...

bey couldn't get her words out...she just sat there on the bed completely disturbed and upset at what jay had just told her...jay stood back up in front of bey and put his hands inside his pockets..

Jay: look bey..as much as it hurts to see my wife crying like this i won't sit here and have any sympathy for you! I've tried too long and too hard to make this work situation with you work out and not only are you NOT meeting me half way...you just don't seem to have a care in the world these days! Junior needs his mother and i miss my wife...and not this workaholic drone I've been seeing....I'm talking about the woman who i  used to know..the Beyonce i used to love being around! *walks by the door*..ima go and let you think about all this for a while..ill be at kanyes if  you need me..*walks out*

Jay walked out of the room and closed the door...bey sat there still crying and upset with herself...when jay made it downstairs solo was watching tv waiting on him and bey..

Solo: hey where you going jay?..How did the talk go?
Jay: i don't even really know to be honest! Beys pretty upset so ima just give her some time...I need to bounce though..tell bey ill be back in time for the event!

jay left the house and solo went up to their room afterwards...she tried checking on bey but she had locked herself in the room by the time solo came up there..

Solo: *knocking on the door softly*..thu..you okay sweetie?

Bey never answered but solo could hear her crying from behind the door..

Solo: listen thu im not gonna leave you hear by yourself until i make sure you're okay! let me know something thu please!

Bey still never said anything so solange went back downstairs...she didn't wanna leave bey alone in the state that she was in so she stayed at the house and chilled...

(5 hours later that evening)

bey was in her and jays room showering and getting herself together for the event...jay had gone into the guest bedroom to get himself together...he was ready in an hour and about 30 minutes after that bey was ready...she walked out of the room in a long black strapless flowing dress..her hair was beautifully curled and her make-up done perfectly...she had on red bottom 6 inch heals which allowed for her to meet jays height..

(Jay)
Bey looked so beautiful when i saw her come out of the room...i mean she's always beautiful but she was just extra gorgeous tonight...even though things weren't going to well and I was still wondering why bey was sending Lyndell money?!...i decided to put that all behind us and have a good time tonight...this was important to bey and i didn't wanna mess it up with our personal issues!

(Bey)
jay looked so handsome standing by the door...i haven't seen him like this in a good minute...i suppose that's all my fault since i have been working a lot lately! *sighs* he's so sexy in that Armani suit..*looking jay up and down*..i hope we can get through this night peacefully.

Jay glanced at bey a few more moments and walked over to her...he stuck out his arm for her to grab and said..

Jay: you look beautiful this evening bey!
Bey: thank you..*smiles*..and you look very handsome yourself!
Jay: *smirks*..thanks!

Jay was a gentleman and escorted bey to the car...he helped her in and closed her door...after he got in himself the driver took them to the event which lasted about 2 hours and then they were taken to the party that followed after the event...as the night passed by jay was kind of distant and stayed to himself...bey was busy mingling and talking to people when she noticed jay by the bar all alone...she decided to take a break from the crowd and join her husband..

Bey: *walking up to jay*..so you enjoying the party?
Jay: *drinks the last of his drink down*..its alright!...im not really that into it though!
Bey: well that's because you're isolating yourself...why don't you mingle a bit?!
Jay: bey I came here with you..I'm not interested in mingling right now!
Bey: *rolls her eyes*..whatever I guess jay!

Bey walked off and went right back into mingling with people while jay stayed at the bar and watched her...he threw back a couple more shots and then suddenly the thought of bey sending Lyndell money popped back into his mind...now jay did say that he was gonna leave the problems behind for the night but after a few drinks ..that line went right out the window and jay walked over to confront bey about it..

Jay: *walking up to bey*..Beyonce?!.............Beyonce?!!

Bey was so busy talking and laughing that she didn't hear jay...he called her name a second time but louder which caught her attention and the attention of a couple others..bey looked at jay with a death stare on her face..not only was she embarrassed by his actions, she could tell jay was drunk and was sure other people could as well...bey walked up closer to jay..

Bey: *whispering*..jay what are you doing?!
Jay: *Drunk*...Beyonce I need to talk with you!
Bey: not now jay! Not here!
Jay: *sarcastically*...right..I forgot your work comes first!
Bey: *getting upset*..seriously jay can you cut the bullshit out! *looks around*
Jay: ch..whatever I'm done..*walks off*

Bey watched jay as he walked further and further away from her out the door...she shook her head in frustration and grabbed another glass of champagne completely chugging it within seconds....she grabbed another glass right after that and walked off into the crowd...

TBC....

Controversy!

(To My Readers) I apologize to y'all in advance! I am terribly sorry that I ended this post where I did!...I have some good ideas and that's why I did..so just stay put! {^_^} Enjoy this post!

Bey: Oh my god Michael..what are you doing here?!
Michael: I came to talk with you beyonce..*walks in the house*..and I'm not leaving until we do!
Bey: whoa..*pushing Michael back with her hand*..you cannot be here right now Michael..i told you jay was back!..what is there to talk about anyways?
Michael: bey..*smirks*..come on its me! Michael!...why you acting like this towards me all of a sudden?!
Bey: look im sorry okay..I've just been under some stress lately and i really don't want jay to see you....can you just go please?!

Just then jay walked out of the kitchen and stopped dead in his tracks once he realized Michael was standing by the door..he looked at bey..

Jay: whats going on?..why is he here?!
Michael: look man im not tryna cause no drama or anything i just wanted to come and talk to my friend!
Jay: *attitude*.. what is there for y'all to talk about?...she told you she couldn't make it tonight so why are you still bothering her?!
Bey: Jay!!
Jay: *looks at bey*..na bey i don't like this dude!..he needs to bounce before i make him! *looks back at Michael*..i know he up to no good!
Bey: jay please!...just give me 5 minutes to talk to him baby that's all im asking?!

bey was more nervous than a little bit..she didn't want Michael and Jay to end up fighting and knew it was up to her to calm jay down...jay was focused and zoned out on Michael..bey had to literally get in his face to try and pull his attention towards her...she finally got him to look down at her..

Bey: baby come on..don't make this more than what it has to be!....just give us 5 minutes and he'll leave after that i promise okay!?

Not a minute after bey said that..solo, junior, and julez came running through the door..

Solo: hey yall wassup!
Jay: 5 minutes bey..*walks off pissed*
Solo: um okay...whats up with jay thu?
Bey: *rolls her eyes*..he's just upset right now!
Bey: *sighs and turns back towards michael*...why'd you come here?..you're just tryna bring me problems aren't you!
Michael: beyonce you know im not here for that..i would never want to cause problems for you love!..

solo knew something more was up and didn't want the kids to be seeing any of this going on...so she went ahead and took junior and julez upstairs to get junior more clothes..while bey was left talking with michael downstairs..

Bey: why would you come here after I told you jay was back?
Michael: look i know it was a bad idea but i wanted to talk to you beyonce...I have some things i need to say to you and like i said..i won't leave until they're said!

Michael looked up and noticed jay mugging him off in the distance...this made him nervous and really uncomfortable..

Michael: can we go and talk in private?
Bey: we can go outside..and you have 3 minutes left to talk just to let you know!
Michael: *walking outside*..damn i just don't understand why im getting this kind of treatment now when a couple days ago you were perfectly fine with me being around!
Bey: Michael.. you came here unannounced after i told you my husband was back!..why wouldn't i be upset with you?!..you could've started something you wouldn't have been able to finish!!
Michael: im sorry bey...i just had to come down here and...and do this..*grabs beys face and kisses her*
Bey: *pushes michael back & slaps him*..what the hell is your problem?!..You have really just lost your damn mind michael! *wiping her lips*
Michael: you know you could've just pushed me and kept the slap to yourself! *rubbing his face*
Bey: well you know you could've not shown up here but you did anyway!
Michael: beyonce I've loved you for a long time now and it really hurts for you to act like this with me!
Bey: My God Michael..i am married for the billionth time..*holds up her ice glacier on her ring finger*..what don't you understand about that?
Michael: *getting upset*..i don't give a damn about him bey!..All i care about is me and you!
Bey: seriously..i think its time for you to go!..I think that you have a problem and i think this should be the last time you ever show up at my home again and disrespect me AND my husband!..*crosses arms*
Michael: so that's how its gone be beyonce?!
Bey: Michael that's how you made it!...Now please..can you get in your car and leave!

Michael looked into beys eyes and saw how serious she was about what she was telling him...he was so hurt that she was treating him this way but at the same time he was wrong for every action he had taken since showing up at bey and jays house..especially trying to pull off that kiss....he knew bey was done with him for good!

Michael: i guess i'll see you around then..*walks off to his car*

bey watched as he pulled off and just shook her head...after he was gone bey stood in the driveway a few more moments gathering herself...she walked back into the house and went right upstairs without saying anything to anyone...solo and jay just looked at each other both wondering what was said between bey and michael..

Jay: i think ima go and try to talk to her..
Solo: na i think you should give her some time...she seemed a little upset!
Jay: ........man solo i have no idea how to feel about this right now!...i mean my wife was hangin with some other dude..and now it seems like she's in there upset behind him...what the hell is going on?! *puts his head in his hands*
Solo: Julez you and junior go to his toy room and play for a bit okay!
Julez: okay ma..*takes juniors hand*..come on cuz!

solo watched the boys go to the play room and made sure they were all the way in there before continuing her conversation with jay..

Solo: jay im sure its not what you thinking it is!..Bey and I both have been knowing michael for years and he is really just a good friend of hers!
Jay: okay but if they just friends..why is this getting to bey like it is?..No "friend" would be that upset behind another friend in this same situation!
Solo: i mean jay she just had to throw her friend to the curb for being ignorant...they go way back!..wouldn't you be very upset if you had to tell ty ty that he couldn't come around anymore or anything?!
Jay: that's not the same though solo..Ive hung around ty ty damn near every single day of my life since we became friends...bey just started hanging with ol dude after i left!
Solo: well there she is..*looking up at bey walking down the stairs*..talk to her about it!

solo got up and called the boys to come back out...she walked over to bey and gave her a kiss and hug..

Solo: you gone be alright sis?
Bey: *smiling*..yeah im good now...y'all about to leave?
Solo: yeah i need to stop by the store and pick them up something to eat...but ima call you later so make sure you answer okay!
Bey: alright..i love you!..*picks up junior*..and you be a good..mommy loves you too okay!
Junior: i luh you mommy..*kisses bey on her cheek* (awww)

jay got up and walked over to where bey, solo, and the boys were...he gave solo a hug and julez and then grabbed junior from bey..

Jay: aight lil man you be good for us okay!...daddy gone be waiting on you when you come back!
Junior: okay..luh you daddy!
Jay: love you too!

solo took the boys and they finally left...jay closed and locked the door and immediately there was a dead silence in the house...bey walked over by the couch and sat down with her arms crossed..she was still upset about what had happened earlier...

Jay: *walks over by bey and sits down*...you okay?
Bey: yeah I'll be alright!
Jay: *thinks for a second*............look bey i need you to tell me whats going on for real! I mean i know you told me everything already but why this dude got you all upset like this?...*looks at bey*

(Bey)
I was so stressed from today alone I just couldn't take it anymore...i wasn't gonna try and sugar coat anything or go around the world with it..

Bey: he kissed me jay!
Jay: What?!!!..why didn't yo-..*interrupted*
Bey: jay calm down!...i took care of it already!
Jay: *pissed*..took care of it how?!
Bey: i slapped him pretty hard after he did it...i was kind of shocked that he actually went there while you were here!
Jay: Yeah he knew better than to do that shit while i was looking!..I wish i would've caught that nigga!!
Bey: well..i told him never to come back around me anymore so..
Jay: why you sound so down about it?
Bey: *shrugs*..i don't know...i guess cause he was a good friend and i didn't expect that from him!
Jay: well..I'm glad you set him straight!..ch & you good cause I wouldve beat his ass!
Bey: *just looks at jay*...

They both sat there in silence for a couple of minutes and then jay finally got up..he walked in front of bey and took her hand...she looked at him wondering what he was up to..

Bey: what are you doing jay?
Jay: just follow me bey!

Jay had taken bey upstairs to their bedroom..he stopped and faced bey..looking her into her eyes as she stared back..jay and bey start to make out and as they get heated, clothes come off and the sheets pull back..

Bey: jay..I love you..
Jay: I love you to Beyonce!

They start passionately kissing again...and then.........

TBC.......